Taking the time.

Being the busy mom I am, I tend to just try and do it all.  Cleaning, cooking, taking care of the kids, making sure all the normal every day to day things are getting done.  Sometimes I look back on my day and wonder how fast it went.  Did I take a minute for myself?  To just be, or read a book, jump into the Bible and reflect on my day.  Most days I do not.  And the next day I always say, "tomorrow will be different".  But yet, the same thing happens all week.  The weeks turn into months.

The whirlwind of work, play, housework, kids, ect...It is so easy to make an excuse to take some extra time.  I am reading a book, "The Shack", amazing!  But as I was reading a paragraph last night, they were talking about how you are not supposed to put God first, but more like put Him in the center, and let everything orbit around Him.  Now how come I haven't thought of this before!  Instead of struggling and feeling bad because I didn't put Him first all day.  It made so much sense as I read it, I re-read it probably tens times.  It made me smile because I had found the words that I needed to hear.  Something I had been struggling with.  If I make my day sharing it with him, it's exactly what He wants.  It still makes me smile.  It really made my night!

Yesterday was one of those "eye openers".  I struggled with a few things, and ended up getting really upset after my kids went to bed.  There were some things about people that I just did not understand.  I once again closed up and sat there, mad.  Cory was looking at me, and I knew he was, I can tell when he is.  He knew I was mad.  I didn't want to talk to him, I wanted to turn inside of myself and bottle it all up again.  He didn't get up, but sat there and just went "psst".  He's so cute when he does this.  I know he's going to make me laugh, I didn't want to look...I was being stubborn.  But I did..."I love YOU", he says.   Now, this happens often when I get upset or mad.  He has this way, this way of making me laugh or smile.  I pretend like I still want to be, but how can I!?  How lucky am I to have a husband that no matter what makes me laugh when I'm sad!?  He spent all day yesterday cleaning, helping me prepare for the week ahead.  Telling me that he can do things too.  I was so appreciative of what he had done for me.

I am so lucky to have him.  When I look at him I cannot believe that he is the boy next door.  The boy I used to have a crush on.  I always wondered what it would be like to be with him.  And now I know.  I can't believe this amazing man was so close to me my whole entire life.  How crazy, but beautiful.  I am so thankful for him everyday.  That his love, help and parenting doesn't end.  He doesn't take breaks, he knows that being a family is an everyday thing.  I truly am blessed.

And I def made sure I took the time to thank him for what he did/does for me and his family everyday!  Thank you Mr. Lear! :)



Carrie